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Is this the way a toy feels when its batteries run dry?

I am too weak to be your cure

Liar, Liar
3 August 1987
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Too many guys think I'm a concept
or I complete them or I'm going to make them alive,
but I'm just a fucked up girl who is looking for my
own peace of mind.
Don't assign me yours...

"You begin to forget what it means to live.
You forget things.
You forget that you used to feel all right.
You forget what it means to feel all right
because you feel like shit all the time,
and you can't remember what it was like before.
People take the feeling of full for granted.
They take for granted the feeling of steadiness
, of hands that do not shake, heads that do not ache,
throats not raw with bile and small rips of fingernails
forced to haste to the gag spot.
Stomachs that do not begin to wake up in the night,
calves and thighs knotting in muscles that are
beginning to eat away at themselves.
they may or may not be awakened at
night by their own inexplicable sobs."

I am now 23 years old.
I have been through hell and high water over my short life.
I have been in the gutter and up in the sky.
I am working on improving my life everyday.
Though sometimes it is hard to forget the past.